Beloveds. \u00a0It’s been a minute since I’ve blogged about it, but now I’ve got something to blog about, so blog about it I shall. Over the last 18 months, I’ve been actively trying to be more assertive. I have a real difficulty standing up for myself personally and professionally, mainly because I’m so desperate to be loved (or similar) that I’ll basically do whatever and then be confused about why I’m doing something that I never wanted to do in the first place. \u00a0Part of this also means that I’ll arbitrarily decide that over the course of a project that I can\u00a0put my foot down about something\u00a0only\u00a0thrice, and that’s it. So sometimes I’ll get to day two of something and realize that I should have just been really upfront about my intentions from the beginning and that in reality, everybody responds positively to that. We live and we learn. I’ve been driven acutely\u00a0crazy by an artist’s manager for the last 2 months and I finally stood up to his ass on the phone yesterday and while it felt great, I still felt\u00a0like a little kid trying to fight an un-winnable fight. \u00a0I’ve vowed to speak my mind more\u00a0in times of Calmne\u0192\u0192e\u00a0and not just when it gets stressful and I blurt everything out and feel awful afterwards.<\/p>\n
Let me tell you a story.<\/p>\n
I find doing press sometimes really frustrating. You have to do it, basically, because that’s how people know to come to the show, and it’s how we keep the Conversation\u2122 about music afloat. My general philosophy has been to trust the press officers of the presenting organizations of whatever project I’m doing and just say yes to everything because it feels rude to not do that. \u00a0Sometimes, around a big project or tour or show, there will be a little snow flurry of things to do \u2014 a bit of radio, a bit of phone interviews, a few things via email. Ideal world: it all gets consolidated and you knock it out like a video game, even if the radio is in a random place and the phone stuff is at weird times. \u00a0Sometimes something great happens \u2014 you’ll get an interviewer who asks you a probing question you’ve never thought of before, that shines light on your work or your process or life in general in a fresh and surprising way. \u00a0I was asked a few such questions<\/a> by Debbie Millman this last year, I had a great interview with somebody in Ireland this year who made me rethink how I write programme notes, a few years ago somebody asked me such smart questions about Philip Glass’s Piano \u00c9tudes that we are still friends to this day (I literally just offered him the use of my hotel bathtub in London, long story). \u00a0The thread that ties all these things together is not just research but genuine curiosity<\/em>. \u00a0It’s not about knowing every biographical detail about the subject, or every piece of trivia about the topic at hand (although it helps). \u00a0It’s about knowing that you can treat the conversation as precisely that \u2014 a fluid, elegant dialogue, even if it’s over email.<\/p>\n
\nFor future reference, if somebody\u2019s like \u201ci need them ASAP\u201d and then doesn\u2019t actually send them ASAP,\u00a0I become inclined not to do them ASAP, as it were. \u00a0I set aside time to deal with all this kind of stuff this morning,\u00a0and am now about to go into a tech rehearsal for 14 hours, so, I don\u2019t know what his deadline is\u2026 anyway, whatever.<\/div>\n<\/blockquote>\n\nShe responded, indicating that actually he had “ASAP’d” her for a few other artists he was trying to get in touch with for the same article and had then taken his time to compose the questions. \u00a0This should have been a red flag. \u00a0I then later found out that he emailed all of us basically the same set of questions with a few tailored to our own bawdee of work. Fine. Meanwhile I said I would do this damn thing so I set aside the therapeutic\u00a0hour\u00a0of 5:45 AM to 6:30 AM to address this, got up, addressed myself to Miss Nespresso du Val, padded out to the table and fired up Chomper here, to discover a litany of some of the dumbest Prove My Thesis questions I’ve come across in a long-ass time. I present them to you here, with my replies, in full, with no edits made save a few tiny things in brackets. \u00a0Some names changed to protect the innocent.<\/p>\n
I want to also say this, and this is important<\/strong><\/span>: I’m sure this dude is actually a really nice guy and I wish him no ill which is why I’m not putting his name on this. H9 the sin and love the sinner. I just want to have a conversation, amongst friends, about how fucking impossible it is to talk about one’s own music (or anybody else’s music) in this kind of environment where you’re working in somebody else’s crazy intellectual ecosystem. \u00a0I don’t read a lot of writing about music, so interview questions are, for me, a good weather report about the way people are talking about what’s up. For me, my first port of call with other people’s music is usually the music itself, live, or on recording and with the score if that’s a thing; I know that this is a luxury and that many listeners first hear about music in print or online, and usually as a result of the good efforts of Dude to champion the music he likes. So I am not, in any way, trying to set Dude on fire. I’m sure if we had been in the same room, it would have been different, and from the sounds of it, he actually probably likes a lot of the same music I like, and perhaps even my own music. \u00a0It’s just one of those “I got up at five o’clock in the morning to answer these ASAP questions and I wish you had had two genuine questions\u00a0rather than half of an idea and I wish you had asked questions based on curiosity not on some insane set of presumptions.”<\/p>\n<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n<\/i>=== BEGIN THREAD ===<\/div>\n<\/div>\nHi.\u00a0 I feel like you are operating under a bunch of really stressful misconceptions about how music works, but I think I made it through [these questions] with only a few singed eyebrows.<\/div>\nMAIN PROBLEM: you have not asked a single question about notes and rhythms, just about like, perception of scenes that don\u2019t exist?\u00a0 But we will address that, and various problems, as they arise in this enfilade of horrors.<\/p>\n
First things first: a number of people with whom I have spoken over the past five years \u2013 and who are associated with the scene variously known as \u2018new classical\u2019, \u2018post-classical\u2019 and \u2018neo-classical\u2019 \u2013 are uncomfortable with the terms. Do you see them as applicable, and why (or why not)? Is the term \u2018classical\u2019 even relevant? Are there terms – whether applied to the music or not – that you find more acceptable? Given that I am being encouraged to put you all under the same roof, what would be the most satisfying term I could use?<\/em><\/p>\n
I\u2019ve never heard any of these terms before.\u00a0 Read this<\/a>. \u00a0\u2014 who is encouraging you to use them? [NOTE FROM NICO: really do read this. \u00a0It’s got the Thing I Think About That Thing in it.]<\/p>\n
When you write \u201csome people,\u201d what on earth do you mean.\u00a0 Citation?<\/p>\n
Yes.\u00a0 But it\u2019s so worth it.<\/p>\n
Is there anything else you would like to add (assuming you\u2019re not already exhausted!)?
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\nYes.\u00a0 It\u2019s a dude called Will Robin who has written an entire thesis about this idea<\/a> of \u201cindie classical\u201d music.\u00a0 Apparently he has my name in his mouth; I haven\u2019t read it because I\u2019d rather write music.\u00a0 BUT a link to his thesis is attached, and I\u2019d recommend that you read it as it touches on a lot of things you\u2019ve asked.\u00a0 I\u2019m sorry to be so\u00a0tart\u00a0with thee but this feels like a weird combination of answering things I always have to answer but also that I\u2019m on the wrong train in which I\u2019ve just spent a million years talking about everything about music except for\u00a0the actual music herself.\u00a0 I feel like you\u2019ve engaged in a lot of un-interrogated thought about these peripheral matters and I\u2019d love to see what you divine from Will Robin\u2019s thesis.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"