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		<title>Go</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 10 Mar 2010 16:45:48 +0000</pubDate>
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		<title>I See the Sign</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 08 Mar 2010 17:21:13 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[—In bridging the very old and the very new on a handful of albums and collaborations, [Sam Amidon] has managed to meld the rural and the urban, the organic and the synthetic, the oral tradition and the written score.
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		<title>DRAUMALANDIÐ</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Mar 2010 17:12:40 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Gathering around him the entire Bedroom Community collective for the project, Valgeir Sigurðsson creates here an ambitious score that echoes the documentary’s vast themes and visual impact&#8230;
—The Milk Factory 
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		<title>Weapons</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 16 Feb 2010 18:42:24 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Remixed Weapons IV
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		<title>First Things First</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 01 Dec 2009 16:06:44 +0000</pubDate>
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		<title>In C Remixed</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 17 Nov 2009 16:11:22 +0000</pubDate>
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		<title>By the Throat</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 10 Nov 2009 17:29:00 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[By the Throat reaches right out of the thought bubble and punches you out of your skin.
-BBC Music
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<p>-BBC Music</p>
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		<title>Run Rabit Run</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 06 Oct 2009 18:25:44 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Arranged Year of the Dragon
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		<title>This is what we like to see.</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 01 Jun 2009 17:27:52 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[See, now I&#8217;m happy.  I posted yesterday about this review of the Grizzly Bear show, and now there is an interesting and (for now) civil discussion going on in the comments section.  This is what the internet is for.  Let me break down the essential arguments.  First, I called attention to [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>See, now I&#8217;m happy.  I <a href="http://nicomuhly.com/news/2009/collabos/">posted yesterday</a> about this review of the Grizzly Bear show, and now there is an interesting and (for now) civil discussion going on in the comments section.  This is what the internet is for.  Let me break down the essential arguments.  First, I called attention to my dislike for the words &#8220;precious&#8221; &#038; &#8220;twee&#8221; in reviews because I find them problematic, non-specific, and coded.  I asked what the opposite of precious is — my argument being that adjectives that are descriptive <em>and</em> dismissive are wasted space in reviews.  A reader offered &#8220;sloppy&#8221; as the opposite of precious, which I must confess I hadn&#8217;t thought of.  A friend emailed me and staged it in terms of food, which is interesting:</p>
<p><img src="http://nicomuhly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/bagel-300x200.jpg" alt="bagel" title="bagel" width="300" height="200" class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-1148" /><br />
Precious?  &#8220;Everyþing Bagel&#8221; from WD-50</p>
<p><img src="http://nicomuhly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/2306088949_39df359f9d-300x225.jpg" alt="2306088949_39df359f9d" title="2306088949_39df359f9d" width="300" height="225" class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-1149" /><br />
Sloppy?  Not Precious?</p>
<p>What makes all of this super interesting for me is that all of this is talking about <em>Grizzly Bear</em>.  If you set up a sliding scale from Precious to Sloppy, where would you put any of the following:</p>
<p><br />
<small>Grizzly Bear, <em>Dory</em></small> </p>
<p>versus something like this:</p>
<p><br />
<small>Boulez, Messageesquisse, final section</small></p>
<p>or like:</p>
<p><br />
<small>Paul Simon <em>The Cool, Cool River</em></small></p>
<p>Are you gwine give Paul Simon a hard time for the precision of this song?  The presence of Possibly Ethnic Instruments?  The lopey time signature that changes in the choruses?</p>
<p>or better yet:</p>
<p><br />
<small>Steve Reich The Cave, Genesis XXI</small></p>
<p>I feel like the scale breaks down.  Precision and meticulousness just mean different things to all y&#8217;all indie rock people.  Let me go out briefly on a limb.  One of the most exciting things about the universe of indie rock or art rock or whatever the fuck you want to call it is the ability of the artist to represent, through recordings and live shows, an internal artistic universe.  This is the difficulty composers always have: to represent the so-called life of the mind in small units of time.  If you get commissioned for a five minute piece of music, you need to make it be, in addition to a successful five minute piece of music, an appealing glimpse into your musical/mental/erotic universe:</p>
<p><br />
<small>John Adams <em>Short Ride in a Fast Machine</em></small></p>
<p>Larger works need to be larger glimpses: not just a peek through a window but a proper walk around the garden, with drinks:</p>
<p><br />
<small> Wagner <em>Siegfried</em> Dritter Aufzug: Vorspiel</small></p>
<p>CocoRosie are the best at this.  You put on one of they jams and within seconds you realize that you are getting a really specific peek into a really specific place.  If you&#8217;re into it, there are other buildings on the property:</p>
<p><br />
<small>CocoRosie <em>K-hole</em></small><br />
(is there a better lyric than &#8220;Mexican Poný / Fucked up Shoes&#8221;?)</p>
<p>So the point is: meticulousness &#038; precision are the way to get this stuff across.  And in the scale of things, Grizzly Bear is really not doing anything more than paying attention to each sound and each gesture — and, I will add, just in my personal experience of dealing with them, not in a way that I would even begin to call overly-meticulous or precious, it was actually kind of a free-for-all with a larger shape governing smaller decisions.  All of this is a very, very long way to just interrogate that sentence in the <em>Times</em> one more time:</p>
<blockquote><p>But wow, these songs are precious, and they occasionally came spangled with extras that made them even more so. </p></blockquote>
<p>Are they really?  Are they so precious that they require a <em>wow</em>?  و! I bristle because I have been involved in some very meticulous music-making in my life, and this was one of the least.  The application of that word just resonates in the same space in my head when President Bush <a href="http://lippard.blogspot.com/2008/10/bush-and-palin-anti-intellectualism.html">said</a>, &#8220;I don&#8217;t care what somebody on some college campus says.&#8221;  Words like that – especially in reviews – are training people to mistrust mindfulness and thoughtfulness, and it freaks me out a little bit to see a band I like so much get chided with a code-word for not having written meat &#038; potatoes rock &#038; roll.  </p>
<p>That said, let me close out with two unprecious classix:</p>
<p><br />
<small>Classic the First</small></p>
<p><br />
<small>Philip Glass <em>Floe</em> from <em>Glassworks</em> Live at Sadler&#8217;s Wells</small></p>
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		<title>Fm</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 27 Mar 2009 15:54:20 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Muhly&#8217;s Flexible Music is exactly that. Inspired by video games, its energy is relentless, with swirling, punching ideas momentarily relaxed with lyrical lines.
-Donald Rosenberg, Gramophone
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Muhly&#8217;s Flexible Music is exactly that. Inspired by video games, its energy is relentless, with swirling, punching ideas momentarily relaxed with lyrical lines.</p>
<p>-Donald Rosenberg, Gramophone</p>
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		<title>Veckatimest</title>
		<link>http://nicomuhly.com/discographie/2009/veckatimest/</link>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 08 Mar 2009 18:08:27 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[A feast for repeated listening, Veckatimest yields the kind of eccentricities a fan can spend months winding and unwinding.
- Los Angeles Times
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<p>- Los Angeles Times</p>
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		<title>Crying Light</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 29 Jan 2009 15:45:55 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[As music, it&#8217;s simply exquisite&#8211;more controlled and considered than anything Antony and the Johnsons have done and sure to linger in the minds of listeners for more than a season.
-Los Angeles Times
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<p>-Los Angeles Times</p>
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		<title>The Reader</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 09 Jan 2009 18:10:36 +0000</pubDate>
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		<title>Something Sinister / The Tone is Missing</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 30 Nov 2008 17:40:14 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[There is something sinister to me about these long articles about couples who desperately want children who spend shits-ton of money to do in-witro fertilization and then end up using surrogates. Alex Kuczynski wrote a nineteen million word essay about her own baby journey in this week&#8217;s New York Times Magazine, in which she explores [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>There is something sinister to me about these long articles about couples who desperately want children who spend shits-ton of money to do in-witro fertilization and then end up using surrogates. Alex Kuczynski wrote a nineteen million word <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2008/11/30/magazine/30Surrogate-t.html?hp=&#038;pagewanted=all">essay</a> about her own baby journey in this week&#8217;s <em>New York Times Magazine</em>, in which she explores her infertility and eventual decision to use (?) a surrogate to bear her child. She writes:<br />
<blockquote>Couples often erect a barricade of privacy around the process to avoid the questions from friends and family members, and their ceaseless, useless volley of suggestions: You just need to relax. Did you try acupuncture? Soy milk makes you infertile. You’re in front of your computer too much. What’s the problem with all you career girls? Did this cycle work? Are you pregnant this time? How many shots? Where? A low whistle: Boy, you must really want a child. You must really want a child. As if that were a bad thing.</p></blockquote>
<p> Well, sugar lumps, you can always just adopt one, like, how hell of gay people aren&#8217;t even allowed to do now in Arkansas. In her article, the idea of adoption only comes up as something other people do. Adoptive mothers, as it happens, were the most supportive of her when she was feeling things like: &#8220;Would I really be his mother? Was the key to motherhood carrying the baby?&#8221; Now, if I were an adoptive mother and this lady called me up talking about, &#8220;Would my child grow up and shout, &#8216;You can’t tell me what to do — you didn’t even give birth to me!&#8217;?&#8221; I&#8217;m sure I would have cussed her out before God, AT&#038;T, and everybody. I was directed to read Dan Savage&#8217;s <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2008/11/12/opinion/12savage.html?scp=3&#038;sq=dan%20savage&#038;st=cse">article</a>, in which he writes about Arkansas:<br />
<blockquote>That state’s Proposed Initiative Act No. 1, approved by nearly 57 percent of voters last week, bans people who are “cohabitating outside a valid marriage” from serving as foster parents or adopting children. While the measure bans both gay and straight members of cohabitating couples as foster or adoptive parents, the Arkansas Family Council wrote it expressly to thwart “the gay agenda.” Right now, there are 3,700 other children across Arkansas in state custody; 1,000 of them are available for adoption. The overwhelming majority of these children have been abused, neglected or abandoned by their heterosexual parents.</p></blockquote>
<p> See, this is where I feel a huge cultural disconnect between these people (Arkansas people + Surrogate Mother People) and me. If there are 3,700 (!) kids in state custody in Arkansas alone, why would you even begin the process of thinking about going through 11 cycles of I.V.F. and dealing with a surrogate and paying her ass $60,000!? It&#8217;s a total scam. Then the idea that this whole state is saying, right, well, a child would be better with married parents than with a single parent, OR with unmarried couples both straight and gay? Obviously it&#8217;s code for &#8220;no gay adoption,&#8221; but it&#8217;s actually much more sinister than that when you think about it for longer than ten seconds. What is the vision of the world that these people are espousing? If they&#8217;re so upstanding, where are the 3,700 wholesome, non-toothless, married couples in Arkansas? Is 2009 going to be like supermarket sweep, with families adopting these Arkönsubörn at high speeds? Good luck with that. Anyway, the thing in the times is pretty wild and well worth reading. I read it once and wasn&#8217;t bothered too much, and then the second time started freaking out at paragraphs like:<br />
<blockquote> The bigger Cathy was, the more I realized that I was glad — practically euphoric — I was not pregnant. I was in a daze of anticipation, but I was also secretly, curiously, perpetually relieved, unburdened from the sheer physicality of pregnancy. If I could have carried a child to term, I would have. But I carried my 10-pound dog in a BabyBjörn-like harness on hikes, and after an hour my back ached.</p></blockquote>
<p> Beg pardon? What 10-pound dog? What <em>hikes</em>? Or how about:<br />
<blockquote>After the second-month checkup, we walked home to my apartment for lunch. We talked about how she had played on her college tennis team. She was an accompanist for a children’s choir and brought her piano sheet music so she could practice. She played our Steinway while I got lunch. </p></blockquote>
<p> <a href="http://nicomuhly.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/11/tuna_sandwich.jpg"><img src="http://nicomuhly.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/11/tuna_sandwich-166x124.jpg" alt="" title="tuna_sandwich" width="166" height="124" class="right" /></a>There&#8217;s something about that sentence: &#8220;She played our Steinway while I got lunch&#8221; that reads like Gertrude Stein, first of all, but then when I realized that their little lunch date wasn&#8217;t going to descend into an afternoon of foxy boxing and tribadism, I started shouting at the laptop in my mind: &#8220;I still don&#8217;t know what dog you&#8217;re talking about&#8221; and &#8220;I bet you can&#8217;t even PLAY that piano!&#8221; and of course, <a href="http://images.google.is/images?q=salmon%20roe&#038;ie=utf-8&#038;oe=utf-8&#038;rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&#038;client=firefox-a&#038;um=1&#038;sa=N&#038;tab=wi">roe</a> and behold:<br />
<blockquote> I stood outside the living room, holding a tray of tuna sandwiches and listening. I was numb. I can hardly play the piano. I never played on my college tennis team. Back in those days, I was smoking and dyeing my hair black. For Pete’s sake, I thought, this woman can do all those things — and have my baby. </p></blockquote>
<p> And again, it&#8217;s like, she can have your baby because her womb goeth, whereas yours goeth not. Shudder. Go to Arkansas and grab one of those babies and write a travel journal. In the department of writing about childbirth, while reading this Alex K. article I couldn&#8217;t stop thinking about Daniel Raeburn&#8217;s article from a couple of years ago in the New Yorker talking about his stillborn daughter, which contains some of the most heartbreaking and intense writing:<br />
<blockquote> Someone once said that William Carlos Williams was sitting by the bed of one of his patients when she died. He turned to look out the window and saw a red wheelbarrow glazed with rainwater beside white chickens. I saw a salt-stained sidewalk under the funnel of a street lamp, a beige plastic armrest beside a blue blanket, my left foot in a black boot slipping in my wife&#8217;s red blood. Irene was in the breech position and she came forth rump first. Our midwife said, &#8220;Push,&#8221; and Rebekah pushed, and pushed again, pushed so mightily that at the apex of her effort the red hole in the center of Irene&#8217;s exposed butt opened and a black turd slithered out. Rebekah expelled Irene in a final burst, and I watched the prunelike baby, embalmed in gore and ichor, flop into the hands of the midwife. The nurse snipped the bobbing umbilical cord and whisked the body out of sight. The nurse who&#8217;d induced Rebekah had tried to warn me. &#8220;The tone,&#8221; she&#8217;d said. &#8220;After they&#8217;ve been dead for a few days, they don&#8217;t have the tone. The tone is missing.&#8221; What she meant was that my girl would feel lifeless. She had no blood pressure and so her face splayed flat in my hand, like a deliquescent tomato. I placed my thumbs above Irene&#8217;s eyelids and eased them upward, intending to look into her eyes, but the milky, unfathomable slivers awed me and I stopped. The unknitted plates of her skull grated and clicked as I cupped my palm and rounded her face to its likeness, which I recognized. It was not like looking into a mirror. Facing a mirror you see merely your own countenance; facing your child you finally understand how everyone else has seen you. </p></blockquote>
<p> Gah. I remember exactly where I was when I read that, too. </p>
<p><span class="dropcap">I</span> am right now in Iceland, happily working away on a mini-vacation in Snæfellsness. It&#8217;s only three hours away from Reykjavík but it feels like a whole universe away.  I am really feeling the severity here: <a href="http://nicomuhly.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/11/budir.jpg"><img src="http://nicomuhly.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/11/budir-300x225.jpg" alt="" title="IMG_0204.JPG" width="300" height="225" class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-897" /></a> </p>
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